Though it might be closer to my main cause of this feeling, it is also closer to my entertainment. I just want transition retreat, San Jose Obon, camping with flaboe, camping with tomo, vegas trip, INC retreat, modern workshops, all my friends’ birthdays, and all the spontaneous adventures. I just need to start fresh soon, cause with this rate my past is going to swallow me whole and I really can’t let me emotional side out right now, its not the time where I can go all emo and talk about it to my close friends, especially in Irvine as it is finals and graduation comin up for the seniors. If I have to I might turn off tumblr for a while, as it is prolly disturbing my peace the most. I can’t handle this anymore, I’ll be the first to admit my own pain and problems. But I’m also the one to admit I don’t know how to deal with it yet. I’m losing it, I guess Im going to go study. 俺のせいだよ、自分が一番分かってるつもりだけど。 それでも辛いよ…
I just want summer to come.
